Saturday, December 23, 2017

not knowing

When I was applying for MSTP programs, I remember agonizing so much over which school to go to, what would be best.

I could have made better choices, negotiated more, asked more advice rather than be anxious and scared on my own.  The head of the lab I was in advised me, Whatever choice you make, you will retroactively justify it as a good choice.  That much was true.

This time, there are nothing but good choices.  But I will agonize nonetheless - but this time, I will ask more advice and negotiate.  And I know that I must follow that internal compass and vision, asking, "What am I trying to accomplish, and what place will help me best on that journey?"

It is rather exciting in many ways.  Perhaps it is the last time I will be at this place of complete uncertainty.

No comments:

Post a Comment